I don't know why I set unrealistic expectations on myself...but I do. I don't blog a lot because I feel like it has to be something amazing or something people will want to read about...

So I'm stepping out and sharing some basics about me and my life today.

1) I am very sleepy today - 2 yr old with the flu for three days so he is not sleeping well and wanting mama to "hold you."
2) I really want to find a new job but I don't just want a job, I want a passion. Really feeling lead to do something with those who have fertility issues or with adoption. It's kind of scary putting this out there because I know you all will hold me accountable.
3) Right now I work for a teleconference company...but I hate to call people. That's the reason I'm in the clerical department.
4) I'm so glad I have been lead to this "blog" stuff because there are so many of my friends who are spiritual leaders to me no matter how close or far away they are.
5) I want to move. I love my house but I'm ready for a move. However, I hate to think of all to go through to sell it. I would love it if someone would just knock on the door, offer to buy our house and we'd move on. But I know in real life that doesn't happen.

Small things about me:
I love to scrapbook, take pictures, rock Will to sleep, would love to ride my bike - just don't know where, love old and new praise music, love brown and light blue together, love to travel - just need the funds, love cultures!!!, love to spend time with my friends, love it when my nieces and nephews run to give me a hug, love to be challenged to find something for people to help them out - can't find a gift item or where to have a party, favorite type of food - real mexican! Pilar's cooking anyone, love to play board/card games, somewhat of a procrastinator, not a morning person - but most of you know that already, need 8 or more days in the week or a job closer to home to get everything done. Thank you God for both the good and the bad. I have been reminded a lot lately that in the bad is when I am closest to God and that is what he desires from us all the time...that no matter the circumstance - we go to Him first.

Okay, so I finally remembered how to log in to my blog...and I was getting flack for not writing anything...so here goes...

Short but sweet this time...

I'm not a big Oprah follower but I did hear her once say something like - When God wants to get our attention, he starts by tapping us on the shoulder. If we don't respond, he might hit us a little harder with something of a little more substance. If we still don't listen or get it, we might watch out for the cars coming our way.

I had a "car" a couple weeks ago. Getting sick on vacation, 103+ temperature, tonsillitis and an ear infection that prevented me from enjoying an all you can eat fresh from the sea - seafood buffet and then after my second trip to the ER being grounded - literally. No flying until my ear popped...so I sent Will home with mom and Ryan, laid in bed for three days and then was told by the second doctor - who graciously saw me for free to see if I could fly yet - that I couldn't fly for three more days. So, being a mom away from her son for this long at this distance for the first time, we hopped a bus - 22 hours/3 buses/6 states and so much more I won't even begin to share - I was home. My ear didn't pop until 4 days later so we would have been stuck even longer in a hotel doing nothing but racking up charges.

So, what did I learn from all this.

A) When God wants your attention...He will get it.
B) The first thing that came to my mind when I realized how sick I was, was my church family. Once they were called and I knew they were praying, I knew I could make it.
C) Being the oldest child of 6 and a getter done kind of person, I am all about making sure all the details are done and with no stone unturned. Being this sick, I had to leave who was staying with me and who was going with Will, travel plans for Will, living arrangements for Will, daycare arrangements, work arrangements, hotel, air fare, medicine, food, everything up to someone else...and know that whatever was decided, even if it wasn't what I would have done, it all would still be okay...and it was. In fact, things turned out better than I would have imagined. Since this ordeal, I am learning that if I don't have my hand in something, it's still going to be okay.
D) God is good. I knew that but He reminded me. I heard another saying this past week...there's not a testimony without a test. Hmm...I like that.

So in current St. Paul's Sunday fashion, can I get a hallelujah for all the ways God is good.