Well, Here I am. Set up with a blog. Don't know who will read it but...here I am.

These last few weeks have been a growing time for me as a Christian. Well, not as a Christian but a growing time for my relationship with God. I have made time, not always consistantly, for talking with God and reading His word. It's funny, when I don't really think I have time in the morning for reading the Bible but stop and do it anyway, I have been early to where I need to go. I guess in our humanness we think that we're too busy and can't fit in time for God or we make excuses...but God is showing me that if I make time for Him, he will work out everything else.

Every time I think of being busy and fitting things into "my" schedule I remember a speaker on a radio show a few years ago. She said, we try to put all the wrong things into our schedule first. If you take a jar and try to fit all one size of rock in and then the next and the next, it doesn't always fit. But if you take the important things (time with God, family, etc) and put those in first, then put in all the little things (grocery shopping, washing clothes, etc), it fits in around the other things.

That said, my life is full and the jar can't hold anymore...at least from my perspective. When I think of what I can cut back on...I have an excuse for keeping everything in my jar as is. It may be because I ejoy that area or I don't think there is anyone who wants to or can do it or I just am a helper...it's in my nature as a first born of 6 or I don't want to disappoint someone. It's easy to say, put the important things in first and then fill in the rest...but to actually do it.

I'm writing this as a friend is beginning brain surgery to remove a tumor. I have peace from God that she will be okay and that He has big plans for her but it puts my own life in perspective. If I had to go through something like that right now, would all the things that I think are not able to be done by someone else or that I think someone will be disappointed if I stop doing be of any importance? Honestly, no.

So, Here I Am God, show me. Teach me. Release me from my own thinking.